Saturday 30 June 2018

What You See Is Not What You Get

They fall, 
crazy and chaotic
hitting on the surface
they bounce up forming a broken glass
to your eyes

Beautiful transparent beads
when touched 
melt to water
when cupped
 slip through your fingers


Saturday 23 June 2018

Blank Out


Wrote in  the morning, that was  the present moment,

The ground is wet. it had been raining and windy last night. Fallen leaves littered the surrounding.  I don't care to clear them.

It is still quite early. The neighbourhood is quiet. All must still be sleeping. Perhaps too tired after overindulging in the leftover raya food or may be too much cartoon stories on the internet last night.

Those cartoon stories, not that important to remember.

I am now walking by the beach. Alone, not a soul other than me . . . and they say the world is crowded, overpopulated.

So the sea the sand the trees and the whole beach place is mine for a moment. Not sharing with anyone, not talking to anyone.

The quietness brings back to the mind events of the past weeks though I don't really want to think about it, better to blank out sometimes.

Things happened at a fast pace, so overwhelming and affecting everybody in one way or another. Positive for some, negative for others. Emotions run high. Euphoria has not died down yet, still loud drowning away reasons for sadness or anguish. Better to forget.

To me? All are irrelevant yet encompassing. The past, nostalgic. Better to blank out, to forget.

At this moment, that sad grey seascape does not bring on positivity to my mood.  But the melody is in sync with my steps, it keeps me to walk on  . . . life goes on . . .

Selamat Hari Raya to dear readers.

Saturday 2 June 2018

Rainy Ramadan Morning

Ramadan Kareem and greetings to dear readers

Now we are already in the middle of Ramadan. I hail Ramadan. It is special. I am thankful for the good health which enables me to fulfil my spiritual duty without any problem so far.

The only problem since the beginning of time is only waking up from a deep sleep for the sahur. :))

Sleepy dove
It was exactly a year ago that I was confronted with a worrying health issue. It jolted me from self-denial because I thought to be physically active all this while means everything was alright with my health.

And the tests confirmed a condition which supposedly required a lifetime of medication. And worse my system couldn't accept the conventional medication.

I went for the alternative treatment though it was quite costly whereas the conventional treatment would cost me very little. Paying is painful and that made me follow the advice and instructions strictly and took the supplements accordingly.

Diet and exercise and reducing body fat have to go alongside with the taking of the supplements in order to make the treatment effective. But dieting is so very difficult to adhere to. It takes great efforts to overcome food temptations, thus I hail the coming of Ramadan which can reinforce my willpower.

I still continue doing exercise when fasting. Of course, tennis, treadmilling in the gym and jogging are out. That will cause body dehydrating. I do not want to cause a commotion collapsing on the tennis court ok, but still, I don't want to be cut away from the joy of tennis, doesn't matter if it is only from the courtside.

Then what do I do to keep active and not allow the body to idle?

Swimming. Gardening. Yes. But today, Ramadan morning was raining hard :(

White lily bowed to the heavy rain
You see it is so difficult to regain the healthy condition. It takes a lot of determination to continue doing exercise and dieting and swallowing those supplements. It is so frustrating and disheartening to see the blood test result is the same as the previous one and that the needle of the scale-weight sometimes never budges. At times I feel like giving up.

But with patience and true grit, after one year, I won. My condition reverse for the better. I feel light. My health indicators are better and that includes the BMI because I have lost more than 10 kg. Yay!